An Endless Winter

This feeling is quite newIt’s not as if I meant itOr even understand itBut still it lingers

Lingers like a sicknessThat cripples my daily lifeFor I cannot quite ignore itNo matter how I try

And all the while I do not understandWhat it is or where it came fromI could call it heartbreakAs I do everything else

But this time it feels like moreMore than the usual dull painWith added numbness that consumes meWith added fear that makes my insides boilWith all my nerves becoming restlessWith all my thoughts surrounding itA fog that can’t be liftedA cloud that will not blow awayA rainy day that never endsAn endless winter

And still I do not understand